[It's too much to think about, too Wrong to think about, how he might actually, somehow be in two places at once. It makes his head hurt and reminds him of some Star Trek episode that he most definitely didn't watch on his own, ever, he would never ever do such a thing and even if he did it was because he was on deployment and it was the only thing on TV in the mess hall--but this was real life and real life didn't do stuff like that. Until it did.
And then Hardison catches him by the arm and he stops, too, just as much because of what he says, the way he says it, the concern.
If he asks, he's gotta tell him.
Damn.]
No.
[Just that, no. Just that, he's admitting to Hardison that he's not okay, that he hasn't been okay, that none of this is okay. And he's the survivor, he's the guy that knows what to do in a survival situation, he's the one who's supposed to have it together. But he'll be damned if that makes Hardison think that he's not gonna be able to protect him, even though the one thing that scares him most in the world is that he can't protect him or Parker.
He wishes he didn't ask him if he was okay.]
I ain't gonna lie to you man, this place really sucks.
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And then Hardison catches him by the arm and he stops, too, just as much because of what he says, the way he says it, the concern.
If he asks, he's gotta tell him.
Damn.]
No.
[Just that, no. Just that, he's admitting to Hardison that he's not okay, that he hasn't been okay, that none of this is okay. And he's the survivor, he's the guy that knows what to do in a survival situation, he's the one who's supposed to have it together. But he'll be damned if that makes Hardison think that he's not gonna be able to protect him, even though the one thing that scares him most in the world is that he can't protect him or Parker.
He wishes he didn't ask him if he was okay.]
I ain't gonna lie to you man, this place really sucks.